spider.monsteri'll take two shots of vodkaone down my throat, and it will coats the ashy insidesa deathy cold.and the other shot between the eyes, and i'll call ita bullet wound.and i'll stuff it silly withmore rounds of vodka and whiskyand i'll be hazardly drunk for afourteenyearold.-i'll arch my feet until they resemble a ballet dancer'slike imaginary highheelsand i'll savour the fact i'm anotherinch tallertallertaller.-i have this strange fascination withgrandmother spiders and i wonder why they spin webswhen they're already dying on the inside.they quote biblical nothings in silk, and thefullstops are made from the bodies of the dead.like another coat of broken arms,another layer of freshly ground lips.grandmother spider swallows her prey.the last supper,than,rigor mortis.-i scribble nothings amongst my armsand you swallow a smile and ask me"what's wrong?"i laugh a damaged laugh and just warn you,"i'm not feeling so good right now."and i
the birdsong.a little bird once told me that we're all monsters.and in complete honesty, i believe him.-something ruptured deep inside his worstforwear moral compass, and the gears and cogs just refuse to grind themselves and tear his heart strings up anymore."it doesn't ache" he whispers to me, as the veins that line every inch of his notsoporcelain skin pump a chemical effervescence down his veins.-two little blackbird sitting on a wallone named peter, one named paulfly away peter, fly away pauldrop dead peter, drop dead paul-he yearns for more than my fragility and the crumpled reputation i hold in my cradling hands, and he laughs this airy, bitter laugh.i laugh too, and i knowhe isn't a liar.he isn't a thief.he isn't a monster.but he's a ghost.-he swallows the sparrows and they slide eagerly down his throat.they rest like robin eggs in his stomach, pearls dying themselves red, like easter eggs.and they melt away in toxic levels of hunger.-he hangs ropes from
7hushedwordsand his broken wrists turned into wings.
straight as a.Rainbowlisten.all the words I can sayare played whenever you hearthe rainwater against my acrylic skinand when you shatter the glass of my fingertips.-i.you know how to make a poet fall in love with you.you are never supposed to give him roses or tell him sweet nothings.give him fireflies from your metaphors.and quotes that make his spine ache with loneliness.take away his eyes that scream like projectors from a theatre.rip the words from his mouth, make them your own.tell him to look for seashells with you,but make sure the beach is empty,cause he just wants the passion of having empty hands.and lastly, make sure you will never love him back.that is how you make a poet fall in love with you.-ii.you told me to clap if i believe how we're all just fragmented hearts longing for our second half.and as cliché as it sounds, i fell in love with that thought.I clapped and you clapped along with me, as we gave applause to starless skies and city lig
winter nightsYou came 2 months ago in a white van that rattles along the road, you tell me how you'd only stop driving whenever you fall in love with the most wonderful boy.'It's you this time. And I will never stop loving you.' you smile, and the bruises on my hips instantly feel better.'i love you.' i whisper, and the air condenses into clouds.'i know,' you smile, and the air around you chills the minutes.-you remind me of winter trees that lack the life of leaves and fruit and flowerbuds that explode into thousands of petals that feel like lips and are dyed colours far too beautiful for our mortal skins.you are but a tree made of white bones that are naked and bare in the last chapter of the year.and you made me love scarves.-we are lifeless as we waste away on playground swings.'hey, alex?' i whisper, and the crisp air welcomes my heated pants with clouds in arms reach.'yeah?''how do you swear?'you smiled and placed a hand over your heart.'i swear I will always love you
benign malignant. cancerousmaybe the anguish will stop sometime soon,[from you, from there, from here]and i'll buckle down and stop aching for you. and i'll have enough time to mend my other pains.and i won't be so convinced that you'll come and hold me and make me feel safe.maybe i just thought you were the skin i could take and make a cocoon ofhoney and scars and malignant neoplasms.but no, you were never meant to read this.and maybe, when my mind finally starts bleeding, i'll learn from the spiders and devour my prey of fragmented
philosophy in graffitiThese words are but fleeting human contact.Both of us are lostbut for a momentwe are lost together.i wonder who you are.
never stops flyingdearest X,i sleep under ribcages which swallow me whole, like hungry mouths that long for the satisfaction of a full stomach, but they have no stomachs, just wicker cages filled to the brim with butterflies.their rattling bones are spidery and brittle but cage me in like iron bars, made for a prisoner, but i get treated like a god.it's a shell of honey and scars and the love of the asphalt, and for now, it's still better than the blanket of arms you gave me.signed,Heart.-you have Atticus' dead shot eyes, but no compassion in your clockwork heart. i used to make fun of you behind your back, saying you wound it up before you went to bed, scared you'd drop dead in your sleep.and i guess i was right.you shoot words at mockingbirds and expect them to stay and be shot down, one by one.except, they'd fly away, and they won't be like those carnival games you'd play with such an earnest will.[perhaps that was the only thing you were earnest about, destroying clay birds.]-you
a poem for a terrible boyyou used to smile and promise you'd choke me with pearl necklaces and everlasting joy wrapped into lace, saying you'd tie my wrists up and cover the veins, so no one could ever see the scars.i'd laugh weakly and whisper how the scars don't matter anymore.[and i spent the night wondering how you knew about them]-we spent nighttime ushering bodyache and musclecramps into our twisted metalspines and our shoulderblades.maybe you were attracted to helplessness.maybe that's why you lovedme.-we are 15, going on immortal [or maybe extinct, but it doesn't really matter] and you promise how our glassy eyes will stay whole long after our bodies rot away into carbon and ash and the butterflies escape from our stomachs.but the birds won't escape, and our eyes will just be non-biodegradable.-you sang me lullabies of morose and heartbreak and paper cuts.
FreedomFreedom at last!The air smells sweet on his face,His bright brown eyes wide,Looking at the sun.Barty Crouch Jr is his name,Fearless Death Eater,The Mark on his arm,Showing his identity.After months in prison,He breathes fresh, cool air,Savouring its taste,Licking his lips.The leather coat keeps him warm,Against the cold night air,His moments of freedom echo in the night,This is why he lived.Forever more a Death Eater,Free from torment of others,He sighs and knows,This is worth fighting for,Freedom.
Lost Never forget. When you lose me, I'm not in